Well, not a whole lot going on. I have lost weight. I really didn't want to loose it this way but I did. I am down to 192.2 last Thursday. Not being eating a lot. But I hope it gets better. Should be finding out what the best treatment options for my mom will be...... That's all for now. Short & sweet.

Well, we totally skipped a month. Sorry..... Jonathan had his 1st b-day party on Saturday August 19th. Had a fun day. Smished his cake more than eating it but still, he made a mess. He just turned 13 months on Sunday. His 1 year stats are 28 lbs. & 32" long. No longer off the charts but still at the 98% for both heigth & weight. Big little boy. What else. Oh, yeah, so tomorrow is our 3 year anniversary but can't really celebrate as I have my mom on my mind. Here is the reason why:
After spending the past almost now 2 days in a fog, trying to think about anything but this, praying that it isn't so, hoping & praying, I am starting to take each day at a time. Saturday my husband & I were informed that there is a possibility that my mom may have cancer. What type, don't know; yet. Won't know the results till Thursday I believe. It had started about a month ago. My mom had gone through 2 treatments of antibiotics with somerelief. It started with a small lump on the left side of the neck. Grew, got red, went down into the left chest area. Has only been able to wear shirts, nothing underneath. But my mom has gone through a lot of tests & now just waiting. Which is the hardest thing to do. But the surgeon who operated on my mom a year ago on her hernia, said, "It's all in God'sHands." What a thought. What a blessing for the doctor to say that. He said he hopes it isn't that. But God is in control. I know that but is still hard. I had a feeling something was up when I noticed the lump acouple of weeks ago. Just never expected cancer. I was sort of prepared. Told Bruck right away when I noticed it. But how does one prepare besidesrelying on God? I ask for prayer for my dad. For obvious reasons, his soulmate for almost 40 years. Pray for my husband as he is not taking this well. He has gone through losing both his mom & real father to cancer; mom having 2 types of cancer. I know he is doing his best to not dwell on it too much but again how do you do it besides praying? Pray for me. Goodness, it is my mother. Yes, we had so many times of my growing up & myearly 20's where we butted heads but I don't know what I would do if I lost her now. Not now but in a short time.... Pray for Jonathan, he doesn't understand. But you know how much he loves his grandma & grandpa. You can see how his face lights up when they come in every Saturday to spend time with him. He is 1 & very young to really understand what is going on. I am thankful that my parents can come & enjoy him. I pray that that will be a continuing thing for a few more years. Prayer for my mom as she never expected this. Comfort for her. Comfort for all of us once the news is revealed. I never expected to be the one to write & ask for prayer for someone who might have cancer. Of course no one does. I know God is in control. I know that everything is in God's hands. I am praying that it is not cancer. But I have 3 long days to think & to pray. The timing is so off. Our 3 year anniversary is on Wednesday. But at this point, I am thinking only of my mom & that if it be God's will that things will be good. Only time will tell.
That's all for now. Thank you for letting me spill it all out.....